Dude ? August 29, 2011
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Po: dude ?
me: yo
Po: wassups
i m fuckin loosing everything
me: thats kind of cool…
losing everything gives us the power
the power of no bounds. no expectations
Po: its making me weak !
me: that weakness is just the withdrawal symptom for it
for the power that you shall realize
anyways
wtf happened ?
why losing everything?
Po: dont know
may b i m not at the right place to save them…
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What the heck? Are we the abandoned children of God? Help us Oh Mighty!
Amen.
Anna, you are in danger. August 16, 2011
Posted by satanifiedenthu in Current, Experiences.Tags: Anna Hazare, India against Coruption, Kejriwal, youth India
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Anna, I want to explain you something with the purest of my heart, please give me a chance to do so.
I am one of the absolutely normal, educated and selfish human being among thousands of the same kind in India. And just like others, I have been a part of this corrupt system from the time I was born here. Sometimes I myself triggered corruption on a small level; sometimes I get annoyed at the massive corrupt illusion our government puts us into.
Just like all of us, I want to be a part of this revolution. I attend all the rallies in my vicinity, I read blogs and news about every updates, and always try to keep up with what’s happening at your end. Sire, I must remind you again, you might be in big danger.
The reason for this warning I have put before you is pretty simple and straightforward. It’s my mentality, it’s how I perceive things, it’s how my vision is. Anna, I am the youth of today. I have anger, and I have education and knowledge to a certain extent. I am short sighted in approach, and I do not think much before acting. I read a lot and I see all kind of things. I know that I sometimes lack an aim and of course the portrait of ideal India is blurred in my mind.
What I want to say is I am still confused. Whenever I attend the anti-corruption rallies or shout India against corruption slogans, I am not sure of its existence. The things that I do not realize is that I am not alone. Anna, I am not alone there. I am the youth; I can get carried away easily. I still have a soft mind.
Whenever I feel this softness in my heart, I start reading your story again. I read Kiran bedi and Arvind Kejriwal’s statements as well. They help me get over that softness and I wake up the very next day with the same zeal.
Anna, you must have been at our age too, and you know that anger is uncontrollable. I get annoyed at every small thing, sometimes I take anger on myself keeping unsaid fasts or not telling anyone about all this.
Anna, you are in big danger because I still lack the vision you have for our country. You have seen us excelling in every sphere be it technology, sports or business. But here I am unable to see the larger picture. Let foresight prevail here.
Amen.
Insomniac Blues. July 5, 2011
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The voice told me not to sleep this weekend. Let the world stop rotating, but do not sleep, just for this weekend, the voice said.
Wondering why, I asked myself, why should I? Just for the sake of someone’s belief, some voice I should devoid my body of sleep? Let’s try said my small heart pounding hard.
So began the sleepless weekends. Can you believe it, from Friday evening to Sunday evening, three full days without sleep? That too those three days which are globally renowned for misleadingly accepted by human working race as holidays. And this continued for three continuous weeks.
I had no particular reason to explain this sleeplessness. Not like that voice followed me everywhere, sent reminders every hour or something like that. But just that the conviction in that voice forced me to believe. My belief for the time being.
I took shelter of reading. I read endlessly for hours together in one stretch. And then when I stop reading for some time, I just went for a walk. A smooth, directionless and not driven by a motive kind of walk. A long walk sometimes accompanied with a smoke. A cup of tea at any random stall. Staring at the cloud filled sky for hours. Took a bus in which I have not been till now, talked to the conductor about the changing climate and impact of corruption and inflation. Sometime I just did not get hold of time. Never came the moment where I have to see my watch and think for my sleep. I didn’t feel any stress or fatigue.
It was enormous. I never thought I can do this. It felt nice in a way. Rain. Tea. Books. Music here and there.
The voice didn’t return. Actually I do not remember exactly when it was here. I keep reminding myself that this was not for the voice, but instead for me.
I have experienced sleeplessness before too, but that was not something I ever thought of. One good thing about this insomniac behavior was my no more dependence on dreams for escaping this world. Sometimes sleep is that viscous material that keep you glued to reality. Either you need to get deep into it to escape, or never ever touch it.
LuckyMe!
Satanicenthu!
Ratnagiri – I June 8, 2011
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A beautiful small town on the Western Ghats, just 340 kms from Pune, Ratnagiri stands home to a number of forts, temples and places of historic importance.
I got to know about this city while reading one of Amitav Ghosh’s novel – The Glass Palace. It described the last king of Burma spending his time under British confinement at a small place in Ratnagiri. To be true, I loved the part in the book, where the king spent his time watching sea, mountains and birds with his palace there. It depicted a kind of tranquility factor for this place.
So, as usual unplanned to the maximum we were. Boarding our trains from Panvel and reaching Ratnagiri at a very early 5 am. We started our small search for a decent hotel, and ended up at a relatively good place called Swaroop Hotel. It was at a relatively easy to reach location. Anyways what we all were looking was a short power nap and get ready for this awesome weekend.
We went to RatanDurga Fort first. It’s not too far from the city, just a 20 minute rickshaw ride to the top. Covered three sides with sea; it presented a mesmerizing view of the unending vastness of the ocean. And if the weather wishes, you might just see a rain storm coming in front of you. The fort also holds Bhagwati temple which was just as calm as the peaceful sea encompassing it.
Ratnadurga Fort
The other side of the fort was a light house too. No pakka path till there, so we just trekked to that location. And it was worth it. Like one more step closer to being natural. Cool wind, drizzle defining its texture and makes it more absorbing. Wow. Standing on a mountain cliff, with the vast Arabian sea till you can see and rain drops hitting your face. Godly.
Arabian sear. Western Ghats.
Our next stop was the Theba Palace. Yes, the same place I mentioned before here. Place where last king of Burma was kept. It was on a different hill, with an entirely different view of the sea. I can somehow feel myself in his shoes and see the pain which someone of his stature and intelligence must have felt with his kingdom his everything lost. The place was tranquil no doubt. But somehow it gave me an impression of a lot of rebellious thoughts kept in detention. The place was balanced, but something somewhere was trying to tilt the equilibrium. May be that’s what Theba actually wanted.
The next places were the Theba view point (close to the palace) and the two beaches surrounding the Ratnadurga Fort. They were Mandwi and Bhyate. Lovely places both of them. Had some real good gaon ki chai over there.
The Thebaw Palace
The rain was with us every now and then. And gave us no chance whatsoever to completely dry up at any part of the day. Exactly what I wished for.
Ate the famous Ratnagiri Haafus mangoes. It made me realize why we call mangoes as king of fruits over here in India. The turn was to eat and taste some authentic Konkan sea food curries. We tried crab and oysters. Made me realize everything requires some practice before you can actually enjoy it. Eating seafood properly could also be a PhD topic in few years.
Wind and rain.
Well, for the second day, stay tuned for the next post.
LuckyMe!
SatanicEnthu!
A Drop of Rain. May 26, 2011
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Let me tell you what life is. It’s the little eternal energy that a small drop of rain carries with it while falling on earth.
Only the lucky ones get to feel it. While the others just see it flies by. That scent, mesmerizing! That sound of the rain hypnotic. And that touch, well, no words. The whole phenomenon can be without any doubt called life.
When you imagine yourself to be in that ultra-slow motion video where we slowly blink our eyes turning our faces to look at the randomly falling drops, then see our bare hands partially wet with the rain and try to just fade in this small but beautiful miracle of God.
To be true, it’s an art actually. And every art is difficult to master. Not that I mastered it. But to acknowledge it is itself no easy task. Anyways, that’s not the point. Point is, get drenched. Experience it to feel it.
Amen.
Satanicenthu!
Everything in its Right Place. May 3, 2011
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I believe some things happen for peace. Peace for my mind.
Every discussion has some motive. Some points to prove, some theories to iterate and a lot of things to remember.
I remembered a day clearly today. Not that I had erased it out of my memory, but only that it was waiting for a right time to erupt.
It was some Techniche discussion meeting during the sophomore year winter. Not all were staying during that time. Only the inter IIT contingent or the students who took projects. So, basically we were having some tech fest idea brainstorming session. So, as I was at that point of time, a lot dynamic and always ready for everything I kind of always end up speaking a lot in meetings like this.
But my every set of words, though they made sense or not were more or less governed by only one thing: the one person I think a lot about. All I had in my mind was I can do something today. What What What? I could at least accompany her to the hostel? Yes. I have to do this. I can do this. All I believe was sometimes the wind blows in a manner that changes the way a mind perceives thoughts determining other someone else’s impression. How that wind has the power to bring about an inception in a mind, how that wind is so rare.
But no doubt, it does blow. Or at least it appears to blow.
So, all I had in my mind was: go, talk to her. And with the same full of anxiety mind I went. Yes I do went. ” HI ” I said as she was walking in front of me. In a manner that she doesn’t notice I called her name again. She turned. Again some set of words did emerge from my lips no idea what they conveyed. if you don’t mind I can accompany you to your hostel, just a thought I mean. Ok, hmmm.
It was chilly, very much chilly indeed. Visibility less than around ten meters. All you can see is orange viscous damp with water air around. Except you do not need eyes for this very moment. all you need is an eye camera (a term which i think should define something like when your eyes become a camera without telling you.) and lots of space in your mind for keeping this moment’s feeling alive forever.
I do not exactly remember the words, nor do I try to put any special effort in those. In fact as far as i remember i was concentrating more on everything around. it was just so fantastic. I was trying to remember, decipher and recognize the random patterns around in a expectation that the similar patterns when will appear again will bring this kind of moment in my life. Again. Yet again. Too much of an optimist I am sometimes. Optimist who can neglect and ignore everything as per his hope, as per his faith.
She barely spoke sentences, mostly answering in binary language. I never mind that. In fact that helped me to concentrate more on the feel my mind gets into being around her. Sometimes you just don’t care about others, right?
All I can do now is pray. Pray for me. Pray for those patterns to appear again. Somewhere, sometime, more clear and with even better consequences. Everything should be in its right place.
LuckyMe !
SatanicEnthu !
Be The Hero. March 19, 2011
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I‘ve been reading Marukami a lot in recent times. He could be tagged as addictive. Though not to all. Only to those who can relate his characters with their own.
He guides his protagonists as though they are the only one responsible for their souls.
When you find your world been described in someone else’s words, it gives you a satisfaction. You feel relaxed and hence you can easily correlate with everything he is describing.
Will you remember me, eventually remains his only question to the readers as well as his characters. The characters, yes, his characters even wait for an act of being memorized in a reader’s mind forever. And yeah, a beautiful (if visible) melody always remains in your head while reading.
Give yourself a treat, Acknowledge yourself with what have you done. This might lead to you being remembered by a lot of other people and might lead to you to a satisfied death. It gives me a rest. A rest from this world.
It gives me a feeling of utter pain to write this, but what he describes as his own writing, is mine too. I am just a bit late to write it.
The power to connect with the world, being in your dreams, or in your thoughts is just unbelievable. I am transferred to a different world, where I think I can be the real character described in his book.
Lucky me!
Satanicenthu !
The World is Weird? February 11, 2011
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I have been constantly thinking about the undefined quality or feeling rather, which forces us to bind or attract or interest us to a person or being who shares some similarities with us. I mean are we not always interested in people with something common to us. Yes that is what social networking is is all about, common things, interests, hobbies and traits.
I am here for weirdness; I am defined by this word. Eccentric, crazy or even creepy sometimes. I know there are uncountable people with the same definition. Let’s bring them together.
Let’s share our weirdness, let’s join this world of weird people. Join me, or allow me to share weirdness with you. It definitely won’t decrease by sharing, but I am sure it shall improve, increase and unfold it’s unknown dimensions with us.
Lucky Me !
Satanicenthhu!
Far and Away November 22, 2010
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This world is weird. This world is a black hole too. I mean so much is there in it, one can’t even imagine. This world is full of strange creatures too, my friend just being one of them.
He thinks that our eyes are deceptive; they see anything and try to convince the brain that you have actually seen it. Thus he doesn’t believe in just watching, he believes in experiencing. What’s the point in existing when you can’t live? He thinks if God created something so beautiful, to appreciate it is so much more satisfying than asking for anything more.
He is not only an enthusiastic traveler but a by-choice wanderer. Taste different waters, breath a different air, hear some different sounds and view the different earth. When in Rome live like Romans, thus believing in completely mixing with the environment around. He believes a gentle touch by everyone, intended to care for the earth, will not only make this place a heaven to live in, but will also bring people together to live in harmony with no bars or restrictions.
Far and away is his tender gesture to share this beautiful earth with everyone, irrespective of their locations and limitations. Get ready to be blown with the wind. I have already joined him; it’s your choice now.
Let’s make this life (read ride) memorable, not only for self, but for everyone around.
Amen.
Lucky Me!
Things to do as a Rookie in Office ! September 29, 2010
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I joined office 3 months ago. I know it’s a sad place, with even more sad people on the first look. But, as my friend says, you have to find happiness everywhere on your own, at last it’s everywhere, in everything, so just seek it and smile. 
So, I compiled a list of some simple things to try in office when you are new. Explore I mean the possibilities accordingly. The working culture varies with company and the city, so I can’t generalize it, but this is just my side of the story.
- Do not get flattered by the talking of the most-of-the-times beautiful HR person handling your induction. It is their every week’s job, and they know how to make those beautiful, satisfying and always smiling faces. For reality try getting her personal mobile number. J
- Customize your cubicle as soon as possible. Sticky notes, quotes on white board dates, timetable and everything that helps it look complicated. People should realize what a hardworking and dynamic fellow you are.
- Please don’t come on time. I mean as soon as you start to come on time, the expectations increases exponentially. But, please complete the work assigned to you on time, it puts a wrong impression. And think for a innovative, logically possible reason for it every time.
- Use Lift! Now, these are the never-to-come-again 30-40 odd seconds where you see new faces all the time, so: give a different smile every time, make some weird faces, act strangely and never let anyone see the same you again in the lift.
- Change your deodorant regularly. I mean try not to get a characteristic attached to your career so early.
- Another place to be in is the coffee shop, or the couch besides the coffee machine. Read paper, be updated with the news. No, not about the world, but inside the company news. It is the best bakar place for people not smoking.
- Spend your first salary on gifts. Buy a gift for everyone you know, and give them whenever you meet them.
- Call your friends over your place for weekends, spend on them. It’s fun to observe a change in yourself, when you treat them for any reason.
- Never ever bring a thought in mind that says, “Buddy, your college days are over, grow up !” all that is rubbish, trust me !
- Always think that you can change the world, and charity starts from home. J I mean your company.
- Irritate your cubicle mate, he/she should know that you are a newbie and needs a lot of guidance in terms of office manners.
- Doesn’t feel like writing any more. Seems like who am I to tell you what to do and what not to do, when each and everyone is free to do what he/she feels like doing.
Make your own to-do- list and share it with someone. Leave someone, share it with me, I would love to hear what you do and would definitely try to do that here, in my office to. Don’t hold a fixed and rigid point of view, it hurts sometimes.
It’s time to play some real office-office now.
Amen.
Lucky me !
